Yeah, so I have been a bit MIA lately.
Life is a bit ridiculous. Honestly, I have been struggling. Kade is doing fantastic. He has straight A's in school, and I am so grateful for his sacrifices he makes to get his homework done. Seriously, he works full time, then comes home hangs out for an hour or so then sits down (usually in his chair) and does homework for three to four hours every night. While I try and keep my self entertained.
My health is such a struggle. I feel like such a cop out when I say that out loud. I know there are people out there who have these crazy hardships with their health, I mean real psychical battles each day. I feel like I have no reason to complain. It's just me trying to tell myself to keep moving keep going and try to not dwell on it. But with the physical therapy all the time, the constant dull pain, waking up in the middle of the night because I am constantly uncomfortable, the numb legs and toes, the exercises morning and night, the fatigue, and the anxiety. I am at my wits end. I have really tried to be patient and not complain, but it is getting harder and harder to do.
So I have really tried to focus on this project and I have done so much better with my style but that is why I have MIA. I am will be back full force after my surgery this week and hope it ends soon.
I keep forgetting to check this blog - my bad! I've been pretty awful with style lately too....but more on that later.
ReplyDeleteHayley, you are awesome, okay?? Just because other people supposedly have it "worse" than you do doesn't mean you don't have the right to be struggling right now. It's still a challenge, and it's hard for you, and it's totally okay to admit that!!! You can't compare yourself to others, because your trials are specific to you and your life, while theirs are specific to them. Because God is awesome like that.
You rock for being as patient as you have been!! You are seriously such a trooper. You're in my thoughts and prayers!